The Colorado Massacre and a Hijacked Identity

I’m not much of a superhero buff, but there is something about these Batman movies that resonates within me – the story of an ordinary boy (no kryptonite or spider venom to aid him), struggling to find his identity, who later builds really cool toys and takes justice in his own hands. How many times have you walked out of a movie like this with a bit of swagger? For a moment, even if it’s just a second, you’re overcome with this desire to be the Robin Hood, the William Wallace, the Gladiator, the Dark Knight. We crave being lost in a life where we find a heroic identity.

That quest for identity drives us, and sometimes it drives us to dark places. Sometimes we’re so twisted, that we perceive the villain to be the hero. Enter James Holmes – a twenty-three year old “aspiring scientist,” dyed orange Joker hair, wearing a mask, body armor, and strapped with an arsenal of weapons. In a matter of a few horrific moments, he was no longer just an intelligent, well-mannered, quiet boy from San Diego. He starred in his own reality show where a self-delusional perception of psychopathic heroism became everyone else’s nightmare.

And so the questions begin: “Less guns, more guns, more psychiatric evaluations in universities, tighter supervision of movie watching?” And on and on. I think former Governor Mike Huckabee said it best the other night on his Fox News program. “We don’t have a crime problem or a gun problem – or even a violence problem. What we have is a sin problem. And since we ordered God out of our schools and communities, the military and public conversations, you know, we really shouldn’t act so surprised when all hell breaks loose.”

That “sin problem” is a real pervasive epidemic in our society, and when we get down to it, it’s an identity problem. People are lost – they don’t know who they are or who they should be. Satan lures us, hijacks our identity, and tells us we can find it in all sorts of places – money, work, sex, material possessions, media, relationships, substances. As long as we’re getting some answers, we’ll continue drinking the roofie contaminated kool-aid.

Here’s the scary, sobering reality, for which I will not apologize: anyone who finds their identity in something other than Jesus is finding it in some device of Satan, and it will lead to some sort of destruction. And you know what, Satan’s manipulating and sadistic enough that he doesn’t even need for us to give him the credit. He’ll give us enough luxury so we don’t think we need God or make us nice people so we don’t think we need to be different. He’ll offer us something to take away the pain and then offer us more to take away the side-effects. He’ll bring devastation or destruction to get us to blame God; or he’ll destroy our self-worth so we don’t aspire to be like God; or, like in the case of James Holmes, he’ll twist the definition of heroism and give us enough delusion to pull the trigger. He’ll lure us to the darkest corner of hell and then get us to question the goodness or existence of God when we can’t find Him there. Satan is the prince of this world – the mastermind responsible for creating Hitlers and nice people. He lures you to find your identity in him, and it’s a matter of roulette as to what kind of person he will turn you into. The only thing that’s certain is that his one interest is destroying you and those around you; you are a mere means to that end. The other day we saw just what type of catastrophic end one man’s hijacked identity can bring.

The Good News is that there is an alternative. In John 10:10, Jesus says, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” There are only two options – the Thief or the Liberator, horrific death or abundant life, Satan or Jesus. The beauty of the Gospel is that we are invited to “snap out of it” and find our identity in Jesus. We don’t have to let Satan play roulette with our lives; we don’t have to take him at his deceptive word. We can say, “Jesus, give me your identity. Jesus, tell me who I am. Jesus, let my life be yours. Jesus, I want to be defined by you.” It is when we are lost in Jesus’ life, that we find ours. Like the parable of the treasure in the field, when we discover God’s heart, we discover ours, and that is the beginning of eternal, abundant, and beautiful life.

Living Sacrifice Day 24 – The Desires of Your Heart


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Begin by reading Matthew 6:19-7:13

Have you ever seen a child throw a temper-tantrum when they didn’t get their way? Have you ever heard someone say, “if you love me, then you would…?” Being human beings, we often associate love with getting what we want. Good news. Jesus tells us that He wants to give us the desires of our heart.

But there’s a catch. Jesus isn’t just throwing Himself at us like some sort of Santa Claus. He wants to give us the desires of our heart, but the catch is that He wants the desires of our heart to be in line with the desires of His heart.

Yes, He does say, “ask and it shall be given to you, seek and ye shall find.” But what else ought we to be seeking? Well, in the Sermon on the Mount that served as today’s reading, before Jesus tells us that He’s going to give us what we seek, He tells us to seek first the Kingdom of God. He explains that “where our treasure is there our heart will be also.” The heart, as Jesus goes onto explain, is the source of our entire selves. All of our thoughts, desires, and actions stem from there. If our heart is in line with God, then everything will fall into place as well. But if our heart isn’t in the right place, then we’re going to treat God like a genie and feed Him our wish list.

The point our Rabbi is making is the Lord is looking to bless people that are seeking after Him. He’s not a reckless God who’s going to give us anything and everything we want just because we want it. If we’re not in line with Him, chances are we’re going to be asking for material possessions and for all the wrong reasons. No, He wants to give us what He wants. But first He wants us to want it.

God knows that we will never have second-thoughts if we follow Him. No one who has tasted the true glory and goodness of God and walked in step with the Master has ever said, “I wish I hadn’t done that.” But on the other hand, we have had plenty of occasions where we’ve gone our own way and now live with those regrets.

God is a gentleman. He doesn’t want to force His desires on our hearts, and so He is patient. He waits for us to want to follow Him, to taste and see that He and His will are good. It reminds me of a story I heard recently about a very successful businessman who wanted his son to follow in his footsteps and eventually take over. The son at first had no desire, and so the father did not press the issue any further. But when the son realized how successful and wise his father was, he began to work with him, spend time with him. The more he got to see the business side of his father, the more he understood why he was so successful. The more he experienced the life his father wanted to give to him, the more he desired to live that life and take on that career.

At first, we may stand on the outside and think God’s ways are boring or not fulfilling. But walk with Him for a while, and watch your heart change. Watch yourself be transformed to the likeness of Your Father. That’s when you begin to see His will, and that is when you’ll see how good, pleasing, and perfect of a will it is.

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Living Sacrifice Day 23 – Knowing the Will of God


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Begin by reading John 4:4-26

I remember back to my senior year of high school, as I prepared to go to college. I struggled with trying to figure out where God wanted me to go to school and what major he wanted me to have. I thought it was the biggest decision of my life, and I desperately needed to hear the audible voice of the Lord.

We all want to know the will of God. Like the GPS system that sits on our dashboard, we want God to give us turn-by-turn directions. Sometimes He makes it pretty clear for us; sometimes He doesn’t. But the beginning place to knowing the will of God is actually revealed to us in today’s reading.

Once again we find ourselves looking at the story of the conversation between Jesus and the Samaritan woman at the well. In this story, we find a woman trying to strike up conversation with Jesus about the differences between Jews and Samaritans and where they worshiped. But Jesus wasn’t interested in talking about that; He wanted to get at the heart of the matter. He wanted to examine her heart. The fact is, she was living in sin. She was a woman who had been married five times and was living with someone who wasn’t her husband. Most likely her reputation proceeded her, which is probably why she was drawing water at a time when no one else would be at the well. She wanted to avoid everyone, and they most likely didn’t want anything to do with her.

What does this story have to do with knowing the will of God? The answer is that knowing the will of God begins with obedience. We will not recognize the Lord’s voice if we are tangled up in sin. If you’re fooling around with someone who isn’t your spouse, don’t think that you’ll be able to hear the Lord giving direction on how to lead your family. Obedience is the key first step. In a sense, Jesus is saying, “Forget about where you worship. God desires people who worship in spirit and truth. Let’s begin with the problem of sin that’s paralyzing your heart.” This was a message from the Lord that we hear in Jeremiah 29:13 and Matthew 15:8, “these are people who honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me; they worship Me in vain.”

The Lord is personal. Often times we forget that His relationship is, in a sense, no different than a relationship with a friend. If we want to know what our friend is saying, we need to spend time with them. If we’re hurting them in some way, we’re going to avoid getting closer in our friendship. If we’re holding a grudge against them, we’re not going to want to hear what they have to say. Likewise, our friend probably isn’t going to reveal their secrets to us because we haven’t earned their trust.

Do you want to know the will of God? Is there something in your life where you are anxious to hear from Him? Maybe it’s a big decision and you’re not sure what to do. Maybe He’s silent because He’s waiting for you to draw closer. Don’t just seek Him with your lips. Seek Him with your heart.

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Living Sacrifice Day 22 – A Fresh Start


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Begin by reading Hebrews 12:1-13

Being in the IT field, I’ve had people bring their PCs loaded with their problems to me for help. However, the problem I hate dealing with the most is a computer infected with a virus. Having similar experiences myself (before I converted to Mac), it can be the most annoying and difficult problem. Why? Well, depending on the virus, it can really affect the machine. It can cause it to do things involuntarily, keep it from connecting online to prevent you from solving the problem, it can slow down your computer to a crawl, and in general, it just makes your life miserable. Because viruses come out all the time, the anti-virus programs struggle to keep up with them. So, to solve the problem, you first have to find the virus and then hope the anti-virus is up-to-date enough to kill the problem. But depending on the virus, it can be tricky and could take hours to try to figure out if you’ve gotten everything. So, what’s the best solution? The best solution is to reinstall Windows and give your computer a fresh start. As annoying is it is to back up everything, reinstall the operating system, and reload all the programs, it’s amazing at how quickly the computer will run. I’ve had people tell me, “it’s like you gave me a brand new computer.”

This is a good analogy for our lives as Christians. Even in our redeemed state, we are always susceptible to the virus of sin. It can so easily creep into our hearts and cause our whole selves to malfunction. Once sin is in our hearts, our actions can follow suit. What’s inside eventually comes out. No matter how hard you try, sin just doesn’t stay bottled up.

In Romans 12:2, Paul tells us to be different, to renew our minds. Sometimes, we need a fresh start. If we’re really struggling with a particular sin, sometimes we need to get away. That getting away may be in the form of repentance; prayer, meditation, or fasting; encouragement from other believers; or perhaps counseling. We, in a sense, need to be rebooted. When God redeems us, He makes us a new creation. But until we reach heaven, we’re always going to be struggling with the temptations of sin.

In my job, I’m constantly telling people how viruses and spyware work and how to avoid them. “Be careful with what sites online you visit,” I explain. “And when something pops-up, don’t just click on it. In fact sometimes the button that says ‘close’ is a button that will deploy the spyware.” A lot of times, this helps the user from making the same mistake again.

Similarly, Paul tells us to rethink about ourselves. Because when we see ourselves as God’s redeemed, we begin to recognize the traps that Satan uses. We start seeing the places where we are susceptible to his snarls and start to avoid them. I think we will be shocked at what God can do through a creature who is committed to being a living sacrifice. When we’re not slowed down by the viruses of sin, we can run the race marked out for us.

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